My Reality Bites Oct. 14, 2008

REALITY BITES!

Today is Tuesday, October 14, 2008….I had two doctor’s appts. this morning and was doing o.k. until about half way through the first one.  Waiting and standing and sitting and waiting some more, wore me out.  It made me hurt, it made me angry, it made me think too much!!!

My first appointment was with my primary physician; I went to have my wounds checked, which they look great, and to talk about my anemia and about my thyroid levels.  She took more blood to find out exactly where the anemia is coming from and to see just how bad my thyroid levels are.  I also asked her about some dizzy spells I have been having, and after checking me out and asking questions, she determined I have Vertigo.  The kind of Vertigo I have is BPPV.  It is no big deal, just something else to add to my long and growing list of illnesses.

Afterwards, I went to my pain doctor.  By the time I got there, I was in a ton of pain.  As I paced the waiting room floor in pain, I got very cranky.  When they finally called me back and took my blood pressure, it was very high.  Earlier this morning at my first appt., it was normal; this is what pain can do. 

My pain doctor also took a look at my wounds and said they looked great, but I still cannot drive for another month.  It has already been 8 weeks!  Anyway, he raised my pain meds., because I have to heal for 4 more months from the Staph infection before they can start my spinal fusion surgeries.  Which means there is no other pain relief until then. 

So, my REALITY is, my pain is not getting any better and there will be no relief until surgeries, which is 4 months away.  I have known all of this for a while now, but reality slapped me in the face today while sitting and waiting; 4 months is a long time when you are in pain daily!  I know God is with me, and will get me through this; I will continue to pray consistently and do my best. 

Jeremiah 32:27 

 I am the Lord, the God of every person on the earth.  Nothing is impossible for me. 

     We need to hear that God is still in control of our lives.  We need to hear that it is not over until he says it’s over.  We need to hear that life’s mishaps and tragedies are not a reason to quit.  They are simply a reason to sit still and listen. 

     The way to deal with disappointments and discouragements is to go back to the story of God, the Bible.  Go back and read His story and be reminded that you aren’t the first person to cry, the first to hurt or the first to be helped.  God’s story is your story; my story!  I definitely try to remember this every day and pray that you can do the same!